There are certain times you stumble upon things and people. Times which makes you travel to a land that was. Its like a blast from the past !!
Lets rewind.
You had a group of friends you were happy with. You went around playing, teasing, shopping, hiking, gossiping, romancing, etc. with them. They meant the world to you and you would do anything for them thought in a rational way but of course. Things were great and you were on top of the world. You belonged with them. You couldn't have asked for anything more.
Then comes a mistake. A mistake that wasn't really a big one. A mistake that you thought you never made and is perceived as one by the others. Something you thought friends would understand but didn't. A gesture that would have been acceptable to you had you been at their place.
The mistake led to misunderstandings fights trust issues and parting of ways. It lead you to a world that you didn't think you'll be in. Like others stay in houses in a normal world, you started living in a shell.
You were confused how to react. You stayed up night and day thinking over things. Playing every single detail in your mind and cry. Cry because you were hurt, devastated and helpless. You were singled out from the group, called a cheater and liar, abused at, ridiculed in front of all and humiliated. And what for?? A mistake that you never committed.
Years roll by and you come to the present.
Here comes the stumbling part. You stumble upon certain gifts, pictures, memories etc. You are reminded of the times. You think what went wrong. You self doubt. You know that the past has affected you. It's scarred you and no beauty products or surgery can heal it. It makes you sad because you don't feel real anymore. You don't know who to blame. You think when people say they wanna go back in time you dread the thought of the same. The blast from the past wasn't really a happy one. You're scared now. Scared of a lot of things for that matter.
But then again.. You're here in 2013. Smiling, living healthy and a future awaiting for you.
Lets rewind.
You had a group of friends you were happy with. You went around playing, teasing, shopping, hiking, gossiping, romancing, etc. with them. They meant the world to you and you would do anything for them thought in a rational way but of course. Things were great and you were on top of the world. You belonged with them. You couldn't have asked for anything more.Then comes a mistake. A mistake that wasn't really a big one. A mistake that you thought you never made and is perceived as one by the others. Something you thought friends would understand but didn't. A gesture that would have been acceptable to you had you been at their place.
The mistake led to misunderstandings fights trust issues and parting of ways. It lead you to a world that you didn't think you'll be in. Like others stay in houses in a normal world, you started living in a shell.
You were confused how to react. You stayed up night and day thinking over things. Playing every single detail in your mind and cry. Cry because you were hurt, devastated and helpless. You were singled out from the group, called a cheater and liar, abused at, ridiculed in front of all and humiliated. And what for?? A mistake that you never committed.
Years roll by and you come to the present.
Here comes the stumbling part. You stumble upon certain gifts, pictures, memories etc. You are reminded of the times. You think what went wrong. You self doubt. You know that the past has affected you. It's scarred you and no beauty products or surgery can heal it. It makes you sad because you don't feel real anymore. You don't know who to blame. You think when people say they wanna go back in time you dread the thought of the same. The blast from the past wasn't really a happy one. You're scared now. Scared of a lot of things for that matter.
But then again.. You're here in 2013. Smiling, living healthy and a future awaiting for you.
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